Blinded by my thoughts

The other day I was reading one of my favorite blogs.

The author of this particular blog is recovering from a broken engagement to a man she dated for seven years. Most people would choose to go through with a relationship/marriage that they knew wouldn’t work out in the long run rather than cancel the wedding all together. But not her, nope, she called off the wedding two months prior.

I think she has amazing courage.

I would never judge people for going through with a marriage they knew deep down inside wouldn’t work. I know several people that this has happened to. I get it! I really do. In fact, if I were being honest with you, there was a little part of me on my wedding day that questioned whether or not I was doing the right thing. But it only took me seconds to push that thought out of my mind and never look back! I am so thankful for the great years that I had with the Ex. And who can be upset with a man that gave me two of the most adorable little boys in the world.

I don’t regret my marriage for a moment!

But, that’s not the point of this post.

This particular post is about this woman who wrote an article about a pond full of beautiful swans. She told a story of her Ex asking her about the beautiful swans on her way to work. And she was dumbfounded. Even though she had been traveling the same route to and from work for two years straight she had never noticed this pond full of beautiful swans. So on her way to work the next morning she made a conscious effort to notice these swans. And there they were! According to her you would practically have to be blind not to notice them. But for some reason, she had never noticed their grace, beauty and elegance.

And of course, this got me thinking.

I usually take one of two routes to work, depending on my morning and what my plans are for the day. I am usually in the car for thirty minutes each way. Thirty uninterrupted beautifully spent minutes. Minutes I use wisely by listening to nothing but the wind in my hair, or music that I want to listen to or NPR, NO Radio Disney. And sometimes, if I know I am going to have a very busy day, I even return work calls so that when I get into the office I am prepared to put in a full day. I realized that because of this busyness in my car, I am probably not aware of the things I should be seeing on my way to work either.

So today I challenged myself to be very aware of my surroundings on my way in. And what I realized is that I need a new route to work!

Not only do I pass the Ass’ house, but I also pass the Hot Fireman’s house, I go by Dracula the Douche’s office, as well as Old Balls office (look for this story coming soon), my dentist office and quite often I pass the Ex on the way out of his neighborhood.

It’s no wonder I can’t move on. I am reminded daily of the crazy dating life I just left behind.

I think today I will take the long way home.