Patience is a what?

Patience.

I wish I had it. It’s something I desperately want, but secretly know I will never have. It’s not something that happens overnight. And in this instant gratification world, it’s something that is often hard to come by. I think the secret to patience is “doing something in the meantime”, going on with your life like you are not anxiously awaiting the perfect scenario. It’s something I struggle with and battle daily.

When I think about patience I think of it like I do the building up of a muscle, it’s something that needs to be worked on every day in order to see the progress. It makes a woman beautiful in middle age. It’s the art of hoping. It is necessary. It can conquer destiny and is often the key to contentment.

So if it’s all of those great things, then why can’t I have more of it?

Well I can’t have it because it entails the capacity to wait…and waiting is not something I’m good at. I can’t wait for my favorite pair of jeans to go on sale before buying them. What if they are all sold out by the time they are on sale? I know, I know, then it wasn’t meant to be…but in my book I’m always “meant to be” when it comes to new jeans.

The funny thing about patience is we are constantly working on it. No one is ever perfect at it. It’s a challenge that we will continue to face day in and day out. It’s not like you can wave a magic wand and you suddenly become patient with everything, because if that were the case, I would take out a loan to buy that wand.

What I am learning in my never ending quest to find patience in my life is that I need to trust my gut, love myself and have patience even when I think it may be impossible. I am slowly but surely learning to let go of the life I have planned for myself to make more room for the life that is waiting for me. I know I have a purpose! I just have to allow myself to live my dreams, have the courage to be my own best friend and act on what I love and who I am…and life will follow.

Hmmmm….easier said than done???