Someone once told me that a lack of passion is fatal.
I never believed it…until now.
Recently I was asked to write a very brief presentation on
my passion and I froze. Do you know why
I froze? I froze because I had no idea what
my passion was. I had lost sight of it
and it scared me. It scared me to the
core.
I was desperately pulling at strings. My mind wondered all over the place. I could not figure out what my passion
was. I cried. I sat in silence. I became frantic. Nothing came to my mind.
Then it hit me!
This
is why I was scared…
Yep! That calendar is
why I lost my passion.
That calendar is
just a month in my life. The majority of
the things on that calendar occur after the hour of 5pm. I have two very busy boys and I’m just one
person. Oh, they have a dad. A dad who is pretty helpful, but he is a dad
that most nights is not home before 8pm.
I am up at 5:30am every morning and don’t stop until about
9:30pm every night. There is not one
moment between those two hours that is stagnant. Nope, we are constantly going. It is
stressful. I don’t have a lot of help
with my kids, therefore, I don’t have a lot of free time, hence the reason why
I’m single too. Who has time for things
we are passionate about, let alone dating, with a calendar like that?
Looking at that calendar, however, made me remember what I
was once passionate about…and am desperately trying to be passionate about
again.
Writing!
It was once THAT haven for me. That haven that I NEEDED every day to feel
complete. There once was a time, that if
I didn’t write each day, it affected my mood.
Because of that picture above, it quickly became something that I didn’t
think about for days on end. And I don’t
ever want to be there again!
I want to write…I need to write…it is who I am. It makes me a better mom. It makes me a better employee. It makes me a better friend.
“You don’t write because you want
to say something, you write because you have something to say.”
F. Scott Fitzgerald
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